28.7.11

small step: devour the WORD daily

Romans 12:3-8
For I say, through the grace given to me, to everyone who is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think soberly, as God has dealt to each one a measure of faith. For as we have many members in one body, but all the members do not have the same function, so we, being many, are one body in Christ, and individually members of one another. Having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, let us prophesy in proportion to our faith; or ministry, let us use it in our ministering; he who teaches, in teaching; he who exhorts, in exhortation; he who give, with liberality; he who leads, with diligence; he who shows mercy, with cheerfulness. 


Be accurate in your assessment of yourself.
Don't think too highly nor too lowly.
God has given each a measure of faith and a purpose.
Each of us needs to function in our purpose for our benefit as well as the body's.
I like the illustration of the body.
It makes things very clear.


1 Corinthians 12:20-22
But now indeed there are many members yet one body. And the eye cannot say to the hand, "I have no need of you", nor again the head to the feet, "I have no need of you." No, much rather, those members of the body which seem to be weaker are necessary.


There is a purpose for you and me.
It may or may not be glamorous but be the best you can be.
We also need to be accurate in our assessment of our relationship with God.
God knows our hearts and all that which lies within.
Be transparent with yourself.

small step: devour the WORD daily

So yeah my ipad is random 
Last night I checked just because and the rest of the note was there 
So here's the  rest of yesterday's  daily WORD


Romans 12:1
v. 1 I beseech you therefore brethren, by the mercies of God that you present your bodies as living sacrifice holy and acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service.


What does beseech mean anyway?
Miriam Webster www.m-w.com states to beg for urgently or anxiously and to earnestly request
So Paul isn't thinking it might be a good idea or mildly suggesting it. He is trying to highlight the urgency and the expectation. 
Reasonable, it can't be any clearer than that.
It's not too much to ask!
It is what it is and the sooner we realize that the better.
When someone speaks urgently we usually respond with equal intensity.
When someone speaks urgently and the task is difficult, we still respond and do our best.
When someone (boss) speaks urgently and tells us it's our job we do it regardless of the difficulty or imposition.
What's the difference here?
God is our ultimate authority as well as our ultimate source for everything.
So what's the big deal about being a sacrifice?
Aside from selfishness, stubbornness, fear, rebellion, I can't see why we would have a problem.
Who knew the biggest hindrance between me and God, is me.
This book keeps pointing back to faith.
If I really believe God's got my back I shouldn't stutter or stumble with His requirements of me.

27.7.11

small step: devour the WORD daily

Romans 12:1
I beseech you therefor brethren, by the mercies of God that you present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy, and acceptable, which is your reasonable service.




I had also written some notes. But my IPad ate them somehow even though I saved. So this is all for now.
My last post was in haste.
I really have nothing to complain about.
HMOs are what they are.
And I have so much to be thankful for.
I am thankful that I have insurance period
I am thankful that I rarely get sick.
I am thankful that I serve a God who heals, delivers, and preserves.
Forgive my rashness...
I'm totally over it. 

ugh HMO

Why does it have to be true that you get what you pay for?
I know it's not 100% of the time.
But lately it seems my experience with HMO it has been 99.9% of the time.
I don't get health insurance rules and regulations.
I had PPO before I was married and lived the high life.
I rarely get sick. Besides eye doctor and dentist I may not even go to the doctor every year.
But since PPO family is insanely priced we have HMO family.
In a few weeks I will have been married for 2 years.
And it seems recently I have been getting the beat down by the HMO wall.


Some things don't even make sense...
Having to choose a doctor arbitrarily and be stuck with that person.
I don't know about anyone else but the way I choose doctors, hair stylist, estheticians, etc is usually by friend or family referral. I have never looked in the phone book or now online and just picked a person by name alone and closeness to where I lived. But that's what they ask you to do. 
I really do not like my doctor. 
That you have to go to your primary doctor before you can see a specialist.
During my PPO life the only doctors I saw regularly were a dermatologist and gynecologist. I really like both of them. But my derm only takes PPO so our relationship had to end. And my HMO primary doctor it ended up taking 2 visits to get a referral to a dermatologist. Why because he told me he knew what I needed and refused to give the referral. Oh and FYI, he was wrong. 
If you are having a medical eye problem you have to go to primary doctor  first and get referred to your eye doctor.
So yesterday I found out about this rule. I have been having problems with my eyes when I wear my contacts, even if it's a brand new pair. So I made an appointment with my eye doctor.  I have PPO for vision insurance. When I get there she is like oh you have HMO medical we don't take that. You'll have to pay out of pocket. ARGH the randomness! I call my insurance to get clarification and they restate what she said but then tell I might not even get referred back to my current eye doctor. What in the world? Does that make any sense? 
You can only switch doctor's once a year.
I did this yesterday because I wasn't going back to random man (the dr. who doesn't like to get referrals and knows everything). I actually was able to get a friend recommendation. All is well. Right? WRONG
What's the deal with only certain days for new patients?
The earliest I can get in is August 31. I am having an eye issue in July. I used to be able to go to urgent care for the same cost as an office visit. But with my current group there is no urgent care only emergency room visit which are $55 more than an office visit. Not to mention the time investment of waiting with a non emergency in the ER.


Every single issue I have does not exist with PPO. 
Why is there such a discrepancy?
So I am frustrated today. The good thing that came out of the events of this week is that I have a new highly recommended doctor if I ever have to go see her.

26.7.11

monday manicure

 Colors used O.P.I Start to Finish, White Shatter, That's Berry Daring and Urban Outfitters Blue 9
 I did two coats of Blue 9 and That's Berry Daring
Then added the shatter randomly and finished with Start to Finish

monday manicure

last week

 My bare nails looking pretty good post Cassia
 Colors used were O.P.I Start to Finish, N.Y.C Taxi Yellow Creme, CQ Passion Orange, Essence White Secret
 The toes
 Two coats of Essence
 One coat N.Y.C and then tips with CQ
And last but not least O.P.I White Shatter

that hair thing

A Hair Experiment


CASSIA
A lot of naturals utilize Henna which can be a conditioning protein treatment that has added benefit or deficit of changing hair color to some variation of red.
Well Cassia has similar benefits without the color




So here we go...
 The dry Cassia
 The package
 Mixed with water. Your supposed to mix to a yogurt like consistency.
 Applied to the whole head. It doesn't have the staining power of Henna. So messes were easily cleaned up but my shirt was stained. 
 Freshly rinsed hair
 My hair was very soft and curls were defined HD style.
The only con I have seen so far is the status of my nails. They took a beating. They were yellow and peeling. But I had a clear base coat on. I took polish remover and the yellowness disappeared. Then I added O.P.I. That's Berry Daring



25.7.11

Sermon Outtakes

Yesterday's Sermon
We have joint services 4th Sunday's in the summer.
So this wasn't my normal pastor but our Bishop
Enjoy


In the Potter's Hands ~ Jeremiah 18: 1-12


The Potter and the Clay
 1 The word which came to Jeremiah from the LORD, saying: 2 “Arise and go down to the potter’s house, and there I will cause you to hear My words.” 3 Then I went down to the potter’s house, and there he was, making something at the wheel. 4 And the vessel that he made of clay was marred in the hand of the potter; so he made it again into another vessel, as it seemed good to the potter to make.
5 Then the word of the LORD came to me, saying: 6 “O house of Israel, can I not do with you as this potter?” says the LORD. “Look, as the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are you in My hand, O house of Israel! 7 The instant I speak concerning a nation and concerning a kingdom, to pluck up, to pull down, and to destroy it, 8 if that nation against whom I have spoken turns from its evil, I will relent of the disaster that I thought to bring upon it. 9 And the instant I speak concerning a nation and concerning a kingdom, to build and to plant it, 10 if it does evil in My sight so that it does not obey My voice, then I will relent concerning the good with which I said I would benefit it. 11 “Now therefore, speak to the men of Judah and to the inhabitants of Jerusalem, saying, ‘Thus says the LORD: “Behold, I am fashioning a disaster and devising a plan against you. Return now every one from his evil way, and make your ways and your doings good.”’”
God’s Warning Rejected
   12 And they said, “That is hopeless! So we will walk according to our own plans, and we will every one obey the dictates of his evil heart.” 



Points
1. The Potter seeks to mold us for His own purpose.
2. Let the Potter have His way the first time.
3. We are in the Potter's hands.


Intrigued and want more
Visit www.faithcfm.org for info on how to get a copy of the sermon and location to visit the church

22.7.11

small step: devour the WORD daily

Romans 10


v.9-11 if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart you will be saved. For with the heart one believes unto righteousness and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. For the scripture says, "whoever believes on Him will not be put to shame".


The book of Romans speaks a lot about faith. Faith is the essential aspect of a healthy relationship with God. I know plenty of people who confess a knowledge of Christ or state they have a relationship. But the absence of true faith or belief is evident. If you really believe in our heart that Jesus is who He says He is then your life should be radicalized by this knowledge. It seems that we say a lot without at true heart connection. We are dutiful about our speech or pay lip service but there's no real connection. If we all really lived what we say we believe the church would REALLY have authority.


God is faithful to His word. He even gives a guarantee in verse 11. I will not be put to shame for my faith. God has never failed me yet and He never will. we have to REALLY KNOW we have the answer (the tested, tried, and true answer). Once we know then we can fully operate in what God has for us.


v.13 For whoever calls on the name of the Lord will be saved
v.17 Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the word of God


So know what? If you realize there is weak points or lacking faith what should you do? We know faith comes by hearing. So are you going to church regularly? Doe you feel that the sermons are beneficial (encouraging, challenging, etc)? Do Sunday School and Bible Study provide opportunities for growth and participating? Do you read the Bible and pray daily? Do you hear from God? 
If you answered not to all, the majority, or even one question, there's room to grow. It's a good idea to evaluate the ministry you are a part of from time to time. There's nothing wrong with going to the same church for years unless you are not growing. 

nail polish giveaway

In the life of a MILF is having a giveaway!
Check out her site inthelifeofamilf.blogspot.com
There are some cool prizes
It's worth your while even if you don't win anything

21.7.11

heat wave

So the weather man was right it was 112 yesterday and about the same today
Air conditioning is my new best friend
I've been laying low lately and hopefully tomorrow will finish all my old posts.

20.7.11

caribbean sparkle

So since I've been on summer break I've been painting my nails more often
And trying to be more creative
I was a polish-aholic all through Jr. high and high school
I did designs and random color combos
I went to college and just didn't have enough time
So I just started building a polish collection again this year
So I am going to do some nail posts
I call this one Caribbean sparkle because it reminds me of the ocean in Jamaica
 I wanted to do something fun and sparkly. The pictures are sans flash.
 I had already worn the base color alone this summer. So I added a rounded square at the tip to cover 3/4 quarters of the nail and then added sparkle to my hearts contentment.
The polish used was
Salon Hansen Xtreme Wear Mint Sorbet
OPI Start to Finish
Urban Outfitters Blue 9
Nyx Spot Light

I did one coat of each color and two coats of the sparkle
I really like Spot Light because it has tiny glitter sparkles and big iridescent circles
I am not in love with Mint Sorbet
I fully appreciate the color but the polish is very thick but each time I use it I get more used to applying it.

I have been following some nail blogs as well check out what I read for links

heat

Today on the news they said there is a heat advisory till 4 a.m Friday morning
That's insane but such is life
It was interesting though they showed clips of the blizzard to keep it relevant
That was only 5 months ago, we were buried in snow
So don't let a little 110 degree weather get you down

small step: devour the WORD daily

Romans 7

Oh wretched man that I am
What a sentiment?
Paul lays it out with no reservations.
I once was dead and wretched but my life giving Savior breathed on me.
And now rather than being wretched I can be righteous!
God is so amazing and forgiving...
People have done so much less to me yet I find it difficult to forgive at times.
I am responsible for Christ's death on the cross.
I am the reason the Savior was needed and sent.
That's pretty weighty!

No good dwells in me
If I am filled with sin and death, then no good dwells in me..
If my life lacks God, then no good dwells in me.
Good = God
There is no access to good or God without Jesus.
We have all been deceived into thinking we're decent and kind.
we have tricked ourselves into putting value on things of no importance to God.
We got it all figured out.
Sin is sin.
Big sin is sin.
And little sin is sin.
I can attempt to pat myself on the back because I don't murder.
But before I get too comfortable I need to remember what I do, do.
Yes wretched is a horrible word but it is also extremely relevant and fitting.
But what's even more relevant is God's grace and mercy!

things happen

Everything happens for a reason
There is no such thing as chance
We all have a purpose and a plan for our lives
Each choice that we make brings us closer or further away from that
And sometimes we get upset when we don't get our way
Then later (sometimes waaaaaaaaaay later) we realize it was for our best
That my way could have would have killed me
Or at the very least robbed me of everything of vital importance
I believe in Divine providence and intervention
I don't believe in luck or karma
I believe in GOD
So when things don't go according to my plan
I try to remember that His plan is best
And all the trillions of times He has proven Himself

18.7.11

love.

So I know I said I was going to be more consistent
But we were on the road again
64 years and going strong
My cousin got married in Charlotte this weekend
So it was joyous occasion and great to be surrounded by family
So I still have to post some old but I'll try to integrate current as well
I am so thankful for love
Celebrating with my cousin and her husband was wonderful
And it brought up how much we (my husband and me) have grown
It will be two years for us in a few weeks
God has been so gracious in our lives 
I loved him tremendously before we were married
And somehow beyond my comprehension that seems so little in comparison to now
I was looking at photos from the wedding and there was visible love 
I don't just mean between the bride and groom 
It was a blessed time God is good.

small step: devour the WORD daily

Romans 4


v.7 blessed is the man whose lawless deeds are forgiven and whose sins are covered!


I am blessed beyond measure! My sins are covered! This verse puts things in perspective in a whole new way for me. It's true that sometimes you have to hear something multiple times or presented in various ways for it to resonate. I know I am forgiven that is not a question but the phrasing "sins are covered" does something for me. I can visualize the blood covering over even the most heinous things and when the blood settles these once terrible things are unrecognizable. They can no longer be connected to me. And even when I think upon the things I've done i focus more on God's grace and mercy than on my actions.


v. 20-22 he did not waiver at the promise of God in unbelief but was strengthened in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully convinced that what He had promised He was also able to perform. And therefore it was accounted to him as righteousness. 


Abraham seemed to have it all figured out and he had less tangible resources than we do now. He didn't have the Bible, the temple, and not even the 10 commandments. He just had what we all really need to focus on a dynamic relationship with God. Abraham had a YES in his spirit. God promised Abraham great things and they came to pass. Abraham had some trials but they look trivial in comparison to what God did in his life. God has promised me great thins and I believe. But unlike Abraham I'm not always ready with a yes. Abraham had to leaves his comfort zone (family, friends, and the "known") to get to the promised land (God's perfect plan and the "unknown"). 


Why is the unknown so scary? we know that God will never lead us astray. He know He'll never leave us nor forsake us. We know He has a future and a hope for us. We know God thought about us in our mother's womb. And the unknown is only unknown to us. God knows it all. So when I feel uncomfortable and challenged I'm going to give myself a spiritual pep talk. I'll praise God for what He's already done, where He's taking me, and the truth of His word!

Sermon Outtakes

So I've been thinking of highlighting sermons
And if you are intrigued you can purchase the cd


Hindrances to Healing
2 Kings 5:1-14


Now Naaman, commander of the army of the king of Syria, was a great and honorable man in the eyes of his master, because by him the LORD had given victory to Syria. He was also a mighty man of valor, but a leper. 2 And the Syrians had gone out on raids, and had brought back captive a young girl from the land of Israel. She waited on Naaman’s wife. 3Then she said to her mistress, “If only my master were with the prophet who is in Samaria! For he would heal him of his leprosy.” 4 And Naaman went in and told his master, saying, “Thus and thus said the girl who is from the land of Israel.”5 Then the king of Syria said, “Go now, and I will send a letter to the king of Israel.”
So he departed and took with him ten talents of silver, six thousand shekels of gold, and ten changes of clothing. 
6 Then he brought the letter to the king of Israel, which said,

   Now be advised, when this letter comes to you, that I have sent Naaman my servant to you, that you may heal him of his leprosy.
 7 And it happened, when the king of Israel read the letter, that he tore his clothes and said, “Am I God, to kill and make alive, that this man sends a man to me to heal him of his leprosy? Therefore please consider, and see how he seeks a quarrel with me.”8 So it was, when Elisha the man of God heard that the king of Israel had torn his clothes, that he sent to the king, saying, “Why have you torn your clothes? Please let him come to me, and he shall know that there is a prophet in Israel.” 9 Then Naaman went with his horses and chariot, and he stood at the door of Elisha’s house.10 And Elisha sent a messenger to him, saying, “Go and wash in the Jordan seven times, and your flesh shall be restored to you, and you shall be clean.” 11 But Naaman became furious, and went away and said, “Indeed, I said to myself, ‘He will surely come out to me, and stand and call on the name of the LORD his God, and wave his hand over the place, and heal the leprosy.’ 12 Are not the Abanah[a] and the Pharpar, the rivers of Damascus, better than all the waters of Israel? Could I not wash in them and be clean?” So he turned and went away in a rage. 13 And his servants came near and spoke to him, and said, “My father, if the prophet had told you to do something great, would you not have done it? How much more then, when he says to you, ‘Wash, and be clean’?” 14 So he went down and dipped seven times in the Jordan, according to the saying of the man of God; and his flesh was restored like the flesh of a little child, and he was clean. 


Key Points
1. Overcome fear of failure
2. Keep hope for healing
3. Humility leads to healing
4. Repent and respond

For more
visit www.faithcfm2.org
email pastorkj@faithcfm2.org
and request Hindrances to Healing July 10 Sermon

beauty

Amazing interesting beautiful clouds
This morning the clouds were like nothing I've ever seen before
I thought they looked like a painting
But then it occurred to me that God is the greatest artist of all time
He created all the beautiful hues in nature and exotic creatures and the intricacies of you and me
Beauty they say is in the eye of the beholder
So today behold more beauty
Today intently search for the fingerprints of our Lord
Even as I type I am overcome by love and gratitude
There are so many signs that point back to God
Regardless of whether there is a scientific explanation, it does not negate His power and majesty
Even the brilliance of superior intellect points directly back to God
And that's BEAUTIFUL!

still playing catch up as you can see by the date on the pictures

12.7.11

Dallas

We recently traveled to Texas for a family reunion
It was consistently HOT (read 100+ degrees)
Which greatly differs from the inconsistent Chicago summer
I took some pictures around the husband's old stomping ground
my prickly little friend

really interesting murals in Deep Ellum








Couldn't leave with a visit to Cowboys stadium

small step: devour the WORD daily

from July 1


ROMANS 1:1-17 
My thoughts after reading 


Am I ashamed of the gospel?
Paul  starts off saying that he's not and then I look at his life  and I look at mine. There's some major discrepancies. Sometimes I'm ready and full to share and sometimes I'm intimidated. I feel like Paul (and the Bible highlights)  was fearless. He spoke before royalty and was stoned as well. But he kept preaching. We are studying the book of Romans in our midweek service. We have also been talking about being separate from the world. It seems it's my attachment to comfort and complacency that hinders me. And although I know I am to be in the world and not of it...there's still to o much of the world in me. So where do I go from here?


Romans 1:17~ The righteousness of God is revealed faith by faith. The just shall life by faith.
I want to be righteous and fearless!
I want to be called a woman of faith!
We all have to start somewhere even Paul had rough beginnings.
I know God has great plans for me!
In my opinion a great place to start is RIGHT NOW!
Recognizing more is require and giving more flows right into faith by faith. 

so much to say so little time

So I have been dreaming up amazing posts 
And some have even been written and just not posted 
So Imma do better from here on out
And try to get back to at least 5 posts a week if not daily
So here's some visual stimulation for the mean time
I did a CurlyNikki twist n curl on dry hair using the Naptural85 twisting method
I loved it!  I used a mixture of Motions wrap lotion and Oyin whipped pudding. 
It was soft, fluffy, curly, and bouncy. I got a plethora of compliments and it lasted through the week. 
Another day later in the week